Monday Frustration.

I'm frustrated today. I got on the scale and it's two pounds higher than it was last Monday. 

With so many conflicting nutritional blogs, diets, etc. out there, I have really been trying to listen to my body and nourish it within the limits of eating whole foods, good fats, and nothing white. 

It turns out that when I listen to my body, it tells me to gain weight. 

Last week when I decided to avoid added sugar and grains, I expected to lose weight. Just a few pounds. Even one pound. I worked out really hard and my metabolism was definitely working - I was so hungry Friday and Saturday. I might have over-eaten a little, but I also drank two bottles of wine and had a few other cocktails. I overlooked everything and assumed that no grains and added sugar would be a cure-all. 

This is a reminder that I need to find balance. Like, how about two glasses of wine. Or hell, even one bottle would be an upgrade. 

I'm not going to give up, and I'm going to continue to search for balance in my diet and exercise. 

After complaining to my coworker (an adorable slender young lady who eats whatever she wants and drinks half a bottle of wine a night) she said "don't look back! it's a new day!" and I know she's right. 

But at some point, I want to stop having to go through this cycle. I'm tired of fighting the same battle when it shouldn't be a battle in the first place. I want to be 20 pounds lighter. I want my pants size to be one number. I just don't know how to get there. 

The journey continues...